Tantric Conception,

Prenatal Care and Birth

         

by Suzy Anand

 

 

Conscious Conception

Pregnancy

*Suzy's Birth Story:

Claire

Reading List & Websites

Bradley v. Lamaze

Suzy's Birth Stories:

          Joelle

          Natalie

 

Conscious Conception

 

Tantra is about working with the energy that naturally courses within each of us and connects us to everything - conception and pregnancy offer us a unique opportunity to FEEL those connections.  Planned conception gives us the opportunity to realize our connectedness with another on an entirely new level.  My first daughter was conceived so consciously that I KNEW I had succeeded and I FELT my fertilized egg embed in my uterus the next day.  Almost immediately, I began to dream of my daughter and of motherhood.  I felt her as a unique, individual presence in my life almost instantly.

 

Pregnancy

On the negative side, while pregnant, I became incredibly suggestive and sensitive to the energies of others.  Because of how suddenly big I became at one point in my pregnancy and the fact that several people in one day commented that I must be having twins, I had an awful nightmare that night that I had two babies and one died.  I truly believe that this dream was created by my fearful reaction to the "twins" opinions of others.  But I was spooked by the dream for quite some time.

 

Strangers and friends alike have a tendency to tell pregnant women horror stories, especially of difficult deliveries.  It is really necessary to protect yourself energetically at this sensitive time.  Use visualization techniques to surround yourself and your baby in a protective shield.  Remind yourself often that those people are sharing their fears and traumas because they have that need, but it has absolutely nothing to do with you.

 

I don't believe in accidents and the synchronicity of life was very apparent in my experiences with my first pregnancy.

 

I had been married just over a year and was 28 years old when my husband's work was to send us to western Canada where I would have no work, and no family or friends.  I decided to get pregnant.  I arrived in our new location in the throws of first trimester sickness.  I could not comprehend that it was called "morning sickness" because I was sick 24/7.  Nausea plagued me at all times for those three months, and then one morning I woke up and it was gone.  During the sickness I discovered a few things.  A dent could be made in the nausea by three things, but when each would work varied: saltines or pretzels sometimes, something naturally sweet like dried fruit sometimes, and ginger sometimes.

 

The other thing I discovered was the public library in walking distance from my new apartment.  Most days, I stayed in bed long after my husband left for work because I couldn't bear the smell of his breakfast and coffee in our tiny apartment.  Then I would force myself to take a walk.  The library was the most pleasant destination.  After my walk, I would return home and curl up with a book.  I read every single book on the Pregnancy and Childbirth shelf and then I started on the Child-Rearing shelf.  All these years later when I think about the happy accident of what was on that shelf, I send up a prayer of gratitude!  The selection I happened to find changed my world.  Below is what I remember of my reading list.

 

 

Claire's Birth

Armed with my new knowledge, but not an adequate amount of the courage needed to accompany my convictions, I allowed myself to be intimidated by my fear-driven husband and mother.  I scheduled a traditional hospital birth with an obstetrician who promised to "try" not to use the all-too-common medical interventions.  I thought she was very progressive (1989), because she encouraged me to make a wish list that she would attach to my chart, but she kept telling me she could make no promises.  Each time she repeated that caveat, my concerns that I would not have the birth I wanted increased.  On the Friday before the week of my due date, I received a call from my OB’s office that she had been hospitalized.  They gave me the number of her covering colleague.  When I called, his office could not fit me in until after my due date.  I could have panicked, but I somehow knew that this was my chance to have what I wanted.  I called the Bradley Method 800 number and convinced the person on the phone to recommend a midwife in my area.  The midwife agreed to squeeze me in that very day, and thank goodness because I went into labor at 5am that very Sunday!  I had the natural birth I had envisioned due to the "accident" of the OB’s unexpected illness.

 

 

Reading List & Websites

 

This was my very first reading list:

v       Husband-Coached Childbirth by Robert A. Bradley, M.D.
Natural Childbirth The Bradley ® Way by Susan Mc Cutcheon, AAHCC 

v       The Secret Life of the Unborn Child: How You Can Prepare Your Baby for a Happy, Healthy Life by Thomas Verny

v       Birth Without Violence by Frederick Leboyer

v       Painless Childbirth: The Lamaze Method by Fernand Lamaze

v       Sheila Kitzinger's Birth Book: A Journal of Your Thoughts and Feelings About Childbirth (Paperback)

v       I believe this book is currently out of print, but she subsequently published: Homebirth by Sheila Kitzinger

v       The Home Birth Advantage by Mayer Eisenstein

v       The Continuum Concept by Jean Leidloff

v       The Womanly Art of Breastfeeding distributed by La Leche League International 

v       I can not remember what was the first book I read by William Sears, but I highly recommend any of his books and most especially Attachment Parenting

 

Nowadays, I recommend starting with the following websites:

v       www.bradleybirth.com

v       www.attachmentparenting.org

v       www.askdrsears.com

v       www.llli.org  (LaLecheLeague International)

v       www.icea.org  (International Childbirth Education Association, publishers of a 1972!! pamphlet called "The Cultural Warping of Childbirth")

For my second and third births, I enjoyed the following book, which was very helpful for preparing the big sisters even though in the end they did not choose to be present.  (Mom naked and making weird noises was more than they could volunteer for!):

v       Children at Birth by Marjie and Jay Hathaway, AAHCC 

 

I also highly recommend a more recent book; The Souls of Our Children by Saundra Cortese.  I recently searched "conscious conception" at Amazon and discovered that there are now several books on the topic.  Saundra's is the only one I have read and I like it very much.



*CLARIFICATION: Bradley Method v. Lamaze – in my opinion

 

Just as there are differences in "styles" of yoga, including some that I do not consider yogic, there are ideas about "natural" childbirth that I do not consider to be natural.  The basic concepts of Lamaze childbirth education are quite good.  But the manner in which it is routinely taught in hospitals is not.  My primary concern is that Lamaze training includes all the things that typical western, intervention-oriented doctors want you to be told so that you won't challenge them if they tell you the interventions are needed.  Secondly, it is my opinion that the breathing techniques that are taught in Lamaze classes are often unnatural, unnecessary and can be counter-productive.  

 

In contrast, the Bradley method teaches parents to be advocates for the non-interventionist, natural birth of their preference and the breathing techniques are far more natural.  But don't just take my word for it- do the reading and see what resonates as right for you!

 

 

*Joelle's Birth

 

(will be added, just as soon as I find the magazine article that was published and check on permission rights.)

 

 

*Natalie's Birth

 

(I originally wrote this in 1995.  How sad it was for me to realize that over a dozen years later every word still rings true.)

 

For my third baby, I planned the homebirth I had always wished for and got it!  It was a great adventure (and a blessing), but not quite the one I had pictured!

 

On the evening of November 10, 1994 I had been feeling gentle labor on and off for days and now it wasn't getting stronger, but it wasn't subsiding.  After dinner, I decided to take a bath with my daughters and wash everyone's hair, so we would all be clean for the newcomer, just in case!  Five year old Claire and two year old Joelle and I were all in the tub together finishing rinsing our hair when I felt a surge below that was unlike anything I had ever felt.  (My water had not broken naturally before the previous deliveries.) Abruptly, I lifted myself out of the tub and sat straight down on the pile of 3 waiting towels.  Then I studied the moisture on them.  This was very serious business.  The midwife had warned that if my water broke before she was on her way, a third baby might appear before she could travel the 30 minutes to our home.  I hesitated because I couldn't be sure.  It looked and smelled and felt just like tub water and I sure didn't want to drag her out unnecessarily.

 

After getting the girls out of the tub and sending them off for pajamas with daddy, I reached my arms up to brush and braid my hair.  The motion of lifting my arms shifted the baby up and out came the flood of fluids that confirmed my water had broken.  A hurried call was made to the midwife and the babysitters.  Now, labor started in earnest and I took to my already prepared bed.  Between contractions I attempted to give my (then) husband instructions.  He kept insisting that the midwife would arrive in time and basically refused to do anything I needed him to do.

 

I labored alone while he frantically tried to reach a friend of mine who is a dentist and had planned to participate.  The only company I had during the labor was my beloved first child, my tabby cat, Tiger.  He was very concerned and curious and was rubbing me for comfort until I chased him away in the cranky late stage. Claire and Joelle also came in once or twice to check on things, but went back to coloring "welcome" pictures in the kitchen. 

 

Afterwards, Claire began the birth story like this, "Mommy said to daddy PUT DOWN THE PHONE the baby is coming out."  And that is exactly what happened.  First he told me not to push because the midwife hadn't arrived.  Then I told him the baby wasn't waiting for a push and could he please move my leg.  As soon as he moved my leg, the baby crowned and spurted right out.  In addition to the two previous births, she had the route softened by the tub I had been soaking in just 35 minutes before.  

 

Moments later, the midwife arrived and all was well.

 

For me, the greater surprise was in the aftermath, which led me to write the following:

 

Having my third daughter in the comfort of my own king sized bed with Egyptian cotton sheets did not seem extraordinary to me.  It felt exactly right and natural.  What did surprise me were the reactions we received to our home-made birth announcements.

 

My childhood girlfriend who is now a Park Avenue obstetrician wrote, "You must have felt like you were back in the old days."

 

I felt joyful, triumphant, spiritual, proud, humbled, overwhelmed, elated, grateful and quite modern.  I most certainly did not feel like a throwback to another time.  I believe that the future of medicine will involve fewer interventions by professionals and more empowerment of the individual.  As Thomas Edison said, "The doctor of the future will give no medicine, but will interest his patients in the care of the human frame, in diet and in the cause and prevention of disease."  What would he think if he were alive today to see how much further western medicine has traveled away from this goal, and the frequency of arrests and harassment of those who attempt to change the tide?  The commercialization and medicalization of areas of our lives where businesses and physicians are not needed has placed immeasurable emotional and financial burdens on family life in America.

 

What a climate we could create for healthy families if we began with the following basic assumptions:

v       childbirth is not pathological

v       most women can and should give birth without drugs and medical procedures

v       nature has equipped women to feed their babies everything they need for the first year.

 

In the United States where more than 90% of births are obstetrically managed, we have a far greater infant mortality rate than in countries where professional midwives are actively promoting prenatal care and breast feeding and delivering all but the under 10% of deliveries where medical assistance is deemed necessary.  Unfortunately, American obstetricians and baby food companies lobby with hostility against midwives and convince women that they need constant intervention by so-called experts.  Women who try to help their own gender have historically been burned as witches and otherwise undermined by male dominated societies.  Midwives’ practices are constantly in jeopardy of losing their insurance coverage even when they have never had a patient make a claim against them.

 

What are we teaching our children if we relinquish control of the most important event of our lives and willingly allow ourselves to be drugged to dull the discomfort?  Can we then expect our children to become adults who take responsibility for their own lives and reject the temptation of recreational drugs?  And what of the unknown side effects of those supposedly safe drugs on the innocent newborns whose systems they do reach?  Aren't we teaching them from birth to numb themselves from life?

 

Why don't we begin a study right now to compare the rates of drug abuse, child abuse, neglect and abandonment by mothers who have experienced birthing situations that instilled confidence and were empowering rather than denying their rights.  What would the statistics show if we could compare the outcomes regarding drug abuse, drop out rates and pregnancy rates for those teens who were birthed and nourished naturally by their mothers and not by the current system?  What would the comparison look like, if we could measure the post partum depression rates between mothers who have and have not had truly natural childbirth; those who have and have not been mostly separated from their newborns by hospital policies; and those who have and have not been taught and encouraged to succeed at nursing?

 

Births that are oriented toward the comfort and needs of the mother and child and not the convenience of physicians and hospital procedures inspire women with confidence in themselves and love for their children; a foundation is laid for quality parenting.  Women need to be empowered, not violated, by the system in order to be more likely to succeed as mothers.

 

Our then two year old, Joelle, went to pre-school and said matter-of-factly, "Daddy took the baby out of mommy's tushy."  Our then five year old, Claire, went to kindergarten and told even more graphic details.  One by one, their classmates' disbelieving moms called.  Natalie's father's friends started teasing him by calling him a doctor or worrying over a lawsuit for "impersonating an obstetrician."  Someone asked if this made him a "midhusband," however, the original German meaning is "with wife" so a midwife is a midwife regardless of gender.

 

Some of our friends were envious as we exuberantly told our story; most were horrified.  Our culture encourages a birthing system that violates the rights of women to control their own bodies by promising them freedom from pain.  Many women say things like, "I beg for the epidural from the first contraction."  The statistics on planned surgical births in this country are scandalous.  It may be true that you can have a painless delivery, but then your recovery is more difficult as you detoxify from the drugs and deal with stitches in your crotch or abdomen while trying to nurse and bond with a drugged infant.

 

Studies have proven that the pain of childbirth is mostly a function of tension and that education and training reduce that tension.  Normal labor does not have to be painful.  I have delivered three children without anesthesia, episiotomy or any other medical interventions.  I equate the experience to any other athletic feat involving months of training and hard work.  If you were a marathon runner having trained for many months for your first full length marathon of 26.2 miles, would you consider, after the 26th mile marker, saying, "my legs are tired can you bring me a stretcher to carry me over the finish line?"  Of course not.  And the reward for finishing a marathon is not nearly as extraordinary as the reward for delivering an alert, healthy newborn.

 

It is easy to see why we have the highest health care expenditures per capita in the world, if we compare the rates of Caesarean births in American hospitals (20-50%) with the rates both here and abroad of midwives and obstetrics practices where non-interventionist methods are promoted (5%).  It is also clear why insured, upper income women have more C-sections than women below the poverty line despite the inferior prenatal care received by the poor.  The difference in fees averages over $2,000.  And don't get me started on the economics behind the lack of support for breast feeding.

 

Education programs that inspire women to investigate holistic choices would be so much cheaper than maintaining the status quo.  Why don't we empower women with the knowledge and the insight to trust themselves to give birth to and nurture their babies as nature intended?

 

These days, Natalie is 13 and she loves the shock value of telling her own birth story to her friends.  She never meets anyone who was also born at home and that breaks my heart.  I would love for her to be less of an anomaly, and the benefits to society are incalculable.